Frightened Rabbit gave their newest devastatingly sad single “I Wish I Was Sober” an excellent devastatingly sad video.
Every breath is labored. You are dying. You are going to die. It’s terrifying. And then when the attack is over, the depression is still there. Once, my stepdad asked me, ‘What does it feel like?’ And I said, ‘It feels like I’m desperately homesick, but I’m home.’
Your feelings are valid simply because you feel them.
Das Atmen sich wohl trotzdem lohnt,
das Schicksal niemals wen verschont,
die Straße ist nicht immer eben und grad’ deswegen:
Auf das Leben!
Jupiter Jones singer Nicholas Müller quit the band recently, and it hit me harder than I thought it would. Not because I’m such a big fan – I don’t really care about their recent work – but because of the reason given: His issues with anxiety and panic do not allow him to be part of the/a band any longer.
I want to get more comfortable being uncomfortable. I want to get more confident being uncertain. I don’t want to shrink back just because something isn’t easy. I want to push back, and make more room in the area between I can’t and I can.
I think too much. I think ahead. I think behind. I think sideways. I think it all. If it exists, I’ve fucking thought of it.
I’ve had a lot of worries in my life, most of which never happened.
Media Multitasking Linked to Depression, Anxiety
Using multiple forms of media at the same time – such as playing a computer game while watching TV – is linked to symptoms of anxiety and depression, scientists have found for the first time.
Michigan State Univ.’s Mark Becker, lead investigator on the study, says he was surprised to find such a clear association between media multitasking and mental health problems. What’s not yet clear is the cause. “We don’t know whether the media multitasking is causing symptoms of depression and social anxiety, or if it’s that people who are depressed and anxious are turning to media multitasking as a form of distraction from their problems,” says Becker, assistant professor of psychology.
Anecdotal evidence (read as: my life) would suggest that it’s the latter. My media multitasking is on a bell curve: When I’m fine, I don’t have a lot of sources on at the same time, when I have early – mild symptoms I surround myself (multitaks media) with input to drown out thoughts and when I reach a certain state I can hardly process anything.